The Intro

So in school they say to know your audience when writing anything. Well, I've mostly just written things that were read by teachers and professors so I don't know who will ever read this blog.  Maybe my own husband might find interest and read this when he feels like finding out what's on my mind.  But I guess I'll start with how this all came about...

Let me begin by saying that I never really thought about having kids. I always figured it would just be the natural part of life that I'd get married and have a couple of kids but the reality of that ever coming true always felt distant.  Like when you're young and you see old people and you think that its a really long way away for you. So I was very surprised to find out it was really happening...I was going to be someones mother. 

By all relative terms I'm not that old to be having my first kid. (I'd be turning 31 days before she was born.) My girl-friends from school are now just beginning to start their families.  I was actually the first one in my small circle. But when I thought about it, I felt really old and couldn't help but worry...

• about how I'd have the energy to play with her
• how I'd be the oldest mom at soccer practice, or ballet, or whatever she did
• how when she got to be a teen, she'd think I was too old to relate, and too embarrassing
• how I was having her too late for her to know my parents, her maternal grand-parents

That last one troubled by soul more than anything else.  I never really got to know my own grand-parents, being half way around the world from them, so I didn't  have much of that extended family growing up.  My older cousins have pre-teen kids and they have been around my parents.  I hate thinking that my own child would never get to know what wonderful parents I had growing up; would never have her own memories of them.  They are so great with Elizabeth and love her so much.  Since I'm an only child, there isn't anyone else to share the memories of my mom and dad so I want her to have as much time with them as possible. 


With that said, baby's wake now. Gotta go.